Saturday, May 3, 2014

May 3, 2014

Ha, two weeks more?? It's still cold. It's May and there is not much to show for it.

The only silver lining is . . . I have until Monday to file my taxes. This is tax weekend and it will be taxing! I am struggling through H & R Block's online software and the convolutions of filing business income and expenses. I do not like this, not one bit. I spoke to three CRA reps yesterday - two gave me entirely wrong information - the third I quite liked, and seemed to know what he was talking about, so I'll trust his advice. E, listening from the couch, said he sounded like a therapist, and he really did. He was calm, encouraging, spoke slowly, seemed concerned. CRA should hire therapists as tax advisors, or train tax advisors in non-directive counselling.

Anyway, otherwise, things are finally calming down . . . my marathon marking sessions are over, as are classes, so I can focus on my less exacting teaching . . . and productions. The next month will involve three different ones . . . and so lots of variety and, hopefully, fun.

So, no Sarah Hampson, I may not be living exactly the opposite of creativity, although I can't say that I'm gunning for high octane accomplishments or risks to get them. Can't some of us . . . just be who we are and not see that as a failing? (This relates to Hampson's article "The Afterlife of Marina Keegan" in yesterday's Globe.

I'm determined to try not to see myself as less than others because I haven't accomplished big things. If I have tried, which I think I have, and nothing's really come of it, why bang my head against the ceiling and risk a concussion? Why not just live quietly and continue to pursue what pleases me and be happy that I can do that?

What else is there to do?