Monday, February 11, 2013

2013

Okay, that last attempt to reinvent this blog as a platform for the rewrite of my apprentice novel didn't work, so I'm back to blogging as a ranter rather than a writer.

It is 2013, which amazes me, and February already, which is another surprise. I find myself slightly fuzzy around the edges these days as the process of reinvention begins.

The fall, if it wasn't obvious from posts here, was completely disorienting. I moved in with E and rented my house, started taking a technical program, and found it all almost unbearable. As of January, I'm going in a new direction, true to my roots and to myself, and it feels a lot better.

I'm going to start paying closer attention to how I feel. I can't seem to think my way through my fog, but my feelings are directing me.

I've reconciled myself to having an unconventional life. I will not mind living across the river from my husband, so long as we know it won't always be this way. I'm okay with having no expectations of the step family beyond courtesy and respect, because even that is a challenge. My career trajectory has done a 360 and that's okay, too. I'm rolling with everything and trying to enjoy it, even if I'm dizzy.

Welcome 2013.